The results of the personality test were very accurate. I want to be more social but I don't know how to be. I want more love but I don't know how to express it and thus I don't receive it. I do not like being controlled but I am good at managing things. Mainly, I want friends, love, and I have to learn to be submissive.
However, the tools that Pastor gave me were the same Scriptures I heard as a child. Romans 12:2 'Be transformed by your mind'. 1 Thes. 5:17 'old things are passed away and behold all things have become new'. My homework was about Mark 11:12-18 about the moving mountains through faith. The problem is, she really thought she was giving me groundbreaking stuff. Unbelievers know these passages. I told her I knew all these Scriptures but I was still in pain. She could tell I was getting disappointed. There's nothing wrong with using the Word with counseling. I sought her out because of that but give me a fresh Word. Pastor told me to stick with her and I'm going to give it a few more times. Otherwise, I'm going to have to move on. I'm tired of searching for a therapists. I've been to a secular therapist. Now, I'm with a Pastor. I may just have to heal myself-get into the Word and find out what God needs me to know so I can live freely.
Lord, please. I just want someone to talk to and someone who can give me poignant advice. Why is this so difficult?
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